Journal 2 - Sigils and the Occult

Lately I have been making a conscious effort to dedicate some of my time into studying the occult. Esoterism has always been one of my biggest interests in life, but sadly it has almost been forgotten ever since I came to college. Spiritually has always been a form of exploring new realities to me, but without being able to balance both, I ended up placing that subject in the back of my mind and succumbing to the mundaneness of daily life. However, something that I was led to believe in just being an isolated study is revealing to be much more than that, turning into an art form and a powerful tool for my creative endeavors, greatly benefiting my direction as an artist and performer.

One of the easiest ways to engage with the occult is through the drawing of sigils, magical symbols that hold hidden intents directed to the subconscious. You can not only draw them to manifest positive changes in life, but also for aesthetic reasons. Their conception does not need to be complicated or ritualistic, they can simply be formed with a pen and paper, or even by drawing them in the air. There are no rules when it comes to engaging in that type of practice, only what you believe to be true. To me, this idea of a mere symbol having powerful intentions behind them is really amusing, both because of their aesthetics and because of the reactions that each person can hold out of their assumptions. Similarly, I have also recently learned that this form of magic can not only be manifested through drawings, but also through any kind of symbol, including dance and music. This means that in any artistic expression that we see, it is possible that there are powerful messages behind them that we are not aware of, at least not consciously.

Another potentially influencing interest that has been in the back of my mind is the mafia genre. My favorite show at the moment is The Sopranos, an iconic masterpiece that is changing the way I see cinema. Regardless, one of the most fun arcs in the show was with the character Christopher, a gangster that was interested in screenwriting and tried to write a mafia movie and even take acting classes. That was particularly interesting for me because I had never expected a gangster to be depicted as passionate about theater in a show. Nevertheless, I think that I would have a lot of fun performing in a noir/mafia type of play, even if I did not take it that seriously.

In summary, I believe that the occult will greatly influence my next creative projects, possibly including theater. Spiritual art forms interest me not only because of their aesthetics, but also because of the hidden deeper meanings that they could carry. These forces are present everywhere, and I want to evoke them and the emotions that they carry, although always in a non pretentious way and with a well thought concept behind it. Moreover, noir plays are also something that would interest me when it comes to theater, but I am not sure on how that would work in practice.